Trying to Speak Woman in My Own Tongue
because, I be bride,
sometimes, I be taken…
My hunger produces
lost friends, apartments,
their hunger expands
into labyrinths
I am rebirthed by
First Lust and Jealousy
Here, I be a xenophobe
estranged from
adapting to their
custom, their
language. My body
as wonderland, as
kept, as what
happens to me
while I’ve gone
missing
Me as their Minotaur,
an exotic of their
imagining.
The children of
Lack & Plenty
have nothin on me
Black Book of Creation
I.
How far can you? she said, far, he said.
How far? she said, so far, he said, that
remembering all of them becomes
a chant, he said. I only she said
can go this far she said, Great, great, gre…..
II.
Some sounds invite eavesdropping to all
the befores. Before all the gates of
never return, before tongues couldn’t
be trained in what they no longer are
Before they knew about choosing
between leaving of will or leaving
of force, before the before that is time
we didn’t call time. Before there
was anything colored about it.
That is – then, here, and there – are not
separate but on a table
III.
Mother sits fashioning her children.
Cosmic clay, stardust, and obsidian
for resilience. Dreams for seeing, and
the things not contained by language, and
hardships sometimes cloaked as nightmares
Story stitched into DNA like
home -distant -multiplied by
separation anxiety, forgotten
becomes the exponential force that
becomes a country expanded beyond
its own self. Beyond the shell that
holds it all together
IV.
Creation is the conversation,
What do you want to be? said she
Anything we choose, said we, But what,
said she, because the world said she, will
choose if you don’t said she. Magic, the
ability to manipulate
circumstance, said we. It shall be, said
she. Time lords, said we, to collapse and
expand time at will, said we, Visibility
and invisibility at will,
said we. It shall be, said she. But, said
she, as gifts are given, they can be
can be stolen, said she. So, with each
of these things, said she, it shall be a
veil of forgetting, a spirit that
resists destruction, and these wings,
said she, Don’t let anyone tell you
they don’t exist! Don’t let anyone
ever tell you they are wax!
V.
Funny how the universe beats
against itself creating echoes.
How far can you go back? they said, Far,
she said, how far?, they said, So far, she
said, It becomes a chant, she said, I
know all the names of my mothers…